Big gulp and a sigh...my baby girl should be 4 years old. I wish I was blowing up balloons and wrapping presents right now. Or writing a blog posts about her favorite things and latest accomplishments. I can't believe it has been four years since her birth. It went so quickly, but seems like a lifetime ago. We really are in such a good place right now. I feel abundantly blessed everyday. Mia and Tripp are such a joy and really make our lived complete. But there is not a
Her life, while short, was not wasted. She was sent her by God for a purpose and while it took me some time to figure out what that was, I am now very clear on it. God gave us an amazing gift of a sweet baby girl. We loved her so much, but we also loved our careers, our things, and ourselves a lot. I hate to admit it, but we put all of those things ahead of what is most important...Jesus! We were not protecting our marriage and building into each other as we are called to do either. I believe with all of my heart that He called her home to draw me closer to Him than I had ever been, closer to each other, and to share our story to draw others to Him. I know that He grieved with us and still does, just as any parent does when then they discipline their children. I also know it was done in love.
I am not at all today who I was four years ago, and I am grateful for it! Richard is forever changed as well. Mia and Tripp are our biggest priority. We have so much to teach them, but the most important thing is that they have a father in Heaven who loves them even more than we do. So much, that he gave up His son, so that we can all be together in eternity.
He wants nothing but the best for me and I had to have a big wake up call to get that message. God's plan really is perfect for his glory and happiness comes when we let go and surrender to that plan. He has great things in store for all of us! If you know Him, praise Him. If you don't know Him, let someone tell you more. He is a good God!
Happy Birthday precious Lilly! I love you so much and miss those beautiful blue eyes. Forever our angel!