This week marks 1 year since Lilly passed away. While it is a time that will be difficult to overcome each year, we have also chosen to use it as a time of reflection. Richard and I decided to use this week not to be sad, but to reflect on who we have become through this long journey and to make sure we are living as God wants us to.
We really do view this week as a major milestone. I remember a year ago when a minute seemed like an hour and day seemed like a week. I used to dread every Monday because it marked another week without Lilly. Sometime when I least expected it, those sad days have gone away. I still miss Lilly with all of my heart, but the calendar does not dictate when I am sad anymore. I really can't believe how quickly this year has gone by and how the Lord has healed and restored us in this year. He has given us strength that we never knew we had and also made us feel comforted and loved in a way we never thought we would need.
The anniversary of Lilly's passing will not be a time we will ever be able to forget. For one, it is the week of the year when everything starts to bloom. On the day of the funeral last year, I noticed green buds all over a section of our garden...we came to find out that they were daylilies. Amazing enough, they are emerging to greet us again this week. What a gift!
I debated on telling the story of how we lost Lilly and exactly what they day and week looked like. But instead of dwelling on such a low time, I think it is better to focus on how our lives have improved over the year. Thanks to everyone for the love, support, and prayer you have shown us. It means more than you can ever know.
Our prayer is that we can look back on our lives one more year from now and continue to be amazed at how God is transforming, using, and loving us.
God bless you all!