I belong to a Mom's online SIDS group and the recent topic of discussion has been on Heaven. Below is a question posted by one of the Moms.
Question from a mom:
"OK so I know that nobody has THE answer but what do you beleive? I am not "religious" at least not in a christian God and Jesus way but consider myself spiritual. I beleive there is something greater out there than our physical presence on earth and definately believe in angels and "heaven" So my question is what do you believe our babies are like as angels? Are they all-knowing, all-understanding, beyond intelligent but soul understanding or are they concordanate with their age for their intelligence and abilities? Can our babies tell what we are thinking/read our thoughts. If I say "I love you baby" in my head and not out loud does he hear me? If so does he also my negative thoughts when I am frustrated or angry. Can he see me at all times? Does he understand everything or is he just a happy baby without me but doesnt know why he left me? I cannot wrap my mind around this! I am so lost!"
This post made me so sad. I can't imagine what it is like to lose your baby and have nothing greater than yourself to pull you through it. It is interesting that she used the word "lost" at the end. I posted a reply that I thought I would share. My sister helped me word it because I don't want to turn them away when they are already hurting so badly.
"Here is what I believe and how I can cope each day... Heaven is where God is and He is the only omnipotent, all knowing person. People who are in heaven are not aware of our thoughts and they are never sad. Therefore, I have to praise God that heaven is perfect and that it is better then our human minds can conceive. Heaven is another birth for us into a world of unkown, more love and joy then we can imagine. We are protected by God. It is his desire that none should perish, but all to have everlasting LIFE! Our babies were perfect and completely sinless. They must live amongst the grandest in all of heaven! We joke that we hope to get a room in Lilly's mansion someday. The bible also says that God remembers every tear and we will be rewarded for our suffering here on earth. That is what gets me through. She is happier than I can conceive and we WILL be together again. That is my two cents anyway...
We are not our own heroes and I have never been more aware of that than I am right now. I will no longer live for "the now", but rather for "the forever".
Love in Christ,